为什么？

为什么？
为什么？
为什么？
为什么会这样？
你可以告诉我吗？
到底是为什么？
我很想知道原因。
为什么你好像变得遥不可及了？

心里的距离永远比实际距离更遥远。

The Natural Phenomena

It's a natural thing that a plant needs air, water and sun to survive. Without anyone of it, it would wilt as times passes. A little change in the weather will effect the growth of a plant too. When drought or flood happen, the plant will be destroy. In the other hand, when it is an ordinary sunny day, the plant will continue growing. Why do the life of a plant have to be control by all of them? Isn't it the plant who should be the one deciding when to live and when to wilt? But, it will never happen. The plant wouldn't be given a chance to decide it's own life as this is it's destiny.

Special For Timun

To my another friend who left ADP, Timun :

Tell the truth, we weren't that close actually. Do you know why? We don't even have any class in common in our 1st sem. Unlike Kel, at least I still have calculus class with him. So, I don't really know you well. Sorry.

But, thanks to the Kuantan trip. We really became closer compared to last time. Still remember our sunrise trip? HAHA! We kisiao already, woke up early in the morning at 5 just to see the sunrise. It was lucky that we didn't kena curse by Aaron and didn't get to see the sunrise. If not, really very potong mood! I really had fun taking nice nice pictures with you and the others at the beach during that time. We even scolded the clouds for blocking the sun, but it's lucky that we didn't leave on the spot. If not, we would have missed the nice scenery.

Do you know that when we sent you the bus stop, I almost cried. I don't know why, because we weren't that close actually. But maybe because of this trip, we really did bond together. This is the only reason that could have made me sad right? HAHA! And now, you're really leaving ADP. Left already also want to tease me with the BUY thing ya? Want to tease how long? HAHA! It's ok la, by teasing me can make you all happy, so I don't mind being teased. See, I treat you all so good! =) Ask me don't emo, you yourself also don't la. Please remember, don't be so egor. Not good okay? Now you and Shalee have to seperate and go into a different path, but just take it as a challenge. I think if you all can overcome distance, this will make your relationship stronger and more long-lasting. Trust me!

Okay la. I just want to wish you all the best in your future life in ICPU. Oh ya, thanks for the lunch in Wong Kok. Next time it's my turn to buy you lunch okay? Don't fight with me. =)

I will miss you teasing me
"buy la!" and "6.30 guy" <3

Special For Sama Nasib Punya Orang

Sama nasib punya orang:

you yourself know who am I talking about.Haih! The sad post in your blog really made me sad and think quite a lot. I sat there and think, so many things had happen in this few months. From January orientation, which I haven't even know you, until now. I still remembered that I know you through one of the LOL meeting, before that I didn't even notice that you're in my calculus class. Later on, we slowly get closer during the election week. Do you still remember that you and Jun came to my house to take the TV to college? Just because that other parties have TV and we don't? HAHA! We even lost our way when going to my house and paid toll for nothing.

After the LOL party, at first i thought that everyone wouldn't be that close anymore. But surprisingly, we still have our BIG GANG LUNCH every single day!I always remember that during our calculus class, how we eat 'char siew pao' secretly and talked and kena scolded by Mr.Phang(5% 5% stop talking). All those seems like just have happen recently.I can still remember how we copy answers during calculus exam, we just shout out the answers like no one's business. HAHA!

Not just that, we still have our calculus study group before exam!We memang sometimes hardcore, sometimes just sit there and talk. All those times were really fun!Still remember that we were so crazy and stressed up for 1 of our 6% exam? We took it so serious like it's a 20% exam. That's so funny!

Seriously, we actually became closer through the Kuantan trip and especially when we knew that both of us were in the same situation. This had brought us closer, because we have the same thoughts. You're really a great friend!You are able to counselor people when they are in a bad mood, because you seems to have more experience than anyone of us. You are actually very matured in the deep side of your heart. I really enjoy all the emo talk with you. HAIH! Time flies so fast. In a blink of eye, you're already leaving ADP(THANKS TO JPA!)

After reading your blog, I got a brother feeling from you. It's more sad when you call me mui mui, like my another brother leaving again. =( It's like we're more than friends already. We're actually a big family. The LOL family. The ADP family.Don't worry, you will always be a part of our gang! The LOL gang!

Kelvin Benigus,
like to eat sugus!
don't forget this ah!
made by Crystal Teoh. =)

愚蠢的人们

人往往都会都有不理智的时候，
尤其是在爱情里。
明知道会受伤，
还是要往前冲。
就算知道了结果会是什么，
可是还是肯把自己陷入困境里。
就算知道了继续等下去也不会有结果，
但还是不肯放手。
人啊人！
为什么这么傻呢？

我朋友说过，
学会放手才能得到真正的幸福。
再拼命挣扎只会让双方留下疤痕。
尝试放手就是幸福的第一步。
选择一条以后再也没有他的路，
继续走下去。

可是，又有谁可以真正的做到这一点呢？
撤撤底底的忘掉过去，
不再执著于得不到的东西。
可能，未来有更幸福的路在等着我们。
如果我们不试着走出过去，
怎知未来会有什么惊喜呢？

人生不能只停留在过去，
这只会阻碍成长！
走向未来才可以活出一个缤纷色彩的生活。

缘分

在茫茫人海中两个人能相遇是缘分，
第一次的相遇也许是偶然，
第二次如果相遇那就是必然，
如果第三次还能相遇的话，
那么是命中注定了！

缘分永远都由不到我们来控制。
两个人能遇见真的很需要缘分。
不管是成为朋友还是情人，
都需要缘分。
没有缘分的两个人，
就算约好了，
最终也不会见到面。

一切都来自于生命中的缘分，
缘分到了躲也躲不掉。
是你的就是你的，
如果不是你的，
怎么也勉强不来。
就像彩虹所说的一样，
天时地利人和真的很重要。
冥冥中自有安排。
只要有缘份的，
兜兜转转还是会在遇见的。

坦诚

当两个人在一起时，
对对方坦白真的很重要。
这样，
这段恋情才可以继续维持下去。
也不会因时间的关系，
而变得更疏远。

当问题出现时，
很多人都会选择逃避，
不去想他。
他们宁愿把问题放在一边，
也不想去解决他。
问题就这样慢慢的累积下来，
最终的结局会闹得一法不可收拾。
之前所压抑的感觉，
会一次过爆发出来。
到时候，
小事情就会演变成两个人吵架的导火线了。
那又何必呢？
一开始对对方坦诚的说出自己的感觉不是更好吗？

很多时候，
选择不坦白的反而是男生。
他们所谓的自尊心，
让他们觉得该把所有的事情都往里面藏。
每当女方问起时，
他们就会说：
“没事啊！”
“你多心了！”
“不要想这样多！”
可是，
他们的一举一动却很明显的表示他们不开心或生气。
但，他们又不肯说。
真是不明白他们在想什么。
到底是为什么呢？
男生的自尊心真的这样重要吗？

不坦白，逃避，自尊心，
这些往往都会让一段恋情该有的甜蜜给慢慢的冲淡掉。
最终的感觉就会像白开水一样，
淡而无味。

可曾试过？

可曾试过。。。想念一个人的滋味？
那种在朋友面前嘻嘻哈哈，若无其事。。。
可是一静下来就闪过他微笑的样子。。。想着他的一言一语。。。
又或者总是在临睡前回忆起和他共同的回忆。。。
开心的回忆就傻笑。。。争执的，不开心的回忆就暗自流泪。。。
又或者总是在无聊时，发着呆时，看着你们之间的信息傻笑或伤心。。。
然后总是有股冲动好想见见他。。。看看他。。。

可曾试过。。。担心一个人的滋味？
那种知道他不开心就好想飞奔到他身边安慰他的感觉。。。
轻抚他的头发告诉他：“没事了，没事了，别不开心，还有我陪你”
可是距离只容许你打个电话安慰他。。。
又或者在他生病时担心着他吃药了没？康复了没？
尽管自己也是在生病。。。
又或者在他和朋友夜出时独自担心他。。。尽管从不曾念他。。。

可曾试过。。。为了一个人哭泣的滋味？
那种因为他的一句话耿耿于怀，闷在心中一整天。。。
然后回到家中。。。躲在被窝里大哭特哭。。。
哭到隔天眼睛肿肿却若无其事的和他嘻嘻哈哈。。。
尽管他已察觉了。。。却假装坚强的说：“没有啊”
又或者因为他无法给你任何承诺，不要你为他等待。。。
于是心抽了一下。。。泪水慢慢滑落。。。却不放声大哭。。。

可曾试过。。。为了一个人开心的滋味？
那种要和他出去所以开心了几天。。。
自我幻想着那天要去这里去那里。。。可是实际上到了那天却不是那样。。。
你只希望静静的看着听着他说话。。。想把他的模样放进心里。。。
又或者因为在无聊时有他的陪伴。。。有他陪你斗嘴。。。所以开心。。。
又或者在你在你生日将近时。。。当他问你要什么生日礼物时。。。
暗自开心着。。。尽管嘴上说不用。。。因为心疼他才买了电话又要花钱。。。
开心着他的心意。。。就算真的没有礼物也无所谓。。。
因为只要他唱生日歌。。。就够了。。。

可曾试过。。。为了一个人当坏人的滋味？
那种只在他面前当坏人的感觉。。。
只在他面前任性，耍赖，刁蛮。。。
只因为想听他哄着自己说：“好啦。。。好啦。。。”
又或者只在他面前挑他语病然后假装生气。。。当小气鬼。。。
只因为想听他哄着自己说：“不要酱。。。很小气耶你。。。”
又或者在他嘲笑自己时故意停下脚步或加快脚步。。。
好让他以为自己真的生气了。。。上前来哄你。。。

这些感觉。。。我珍惜着。。。深怕有天会失去。。。
可是却无法将它们都上锁。。。然后紧握在自己手里。。。
因为。。。我不想自私的把他捆绑。。。
因为他有他的理想，他的目标，他的心愿，他的爸爸。。。
所以我只能留恋于这些感觉。。。却无法拥有它。。。
所以我只能等待他。。。
就算他不要我等他。。。就算最后可能陪在他身边的不是我。。。
可是这是我的选择。。。我知道我不会后悔。。。
因为是他。。。
因为是他，，，所以我愿意等待。。。
因为是他。。。所以我的心抽痛。。。
因为是他。。。所以我不能自私。。。
因为是他。。。所以我愿意辛苦。。。
因为是他。。。所以我放任我的手。。。不让别人牵。。。
只为等待他的双手

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这是一个我在facebook看到的note。
写得真的很贴切。
等待让人真的觉得很累，
可是又舍不得放手。
哈哈！人啊!
干吗要这样作践自己呢？
就让一切都顺起自然吧！

看着这样的一个心情，
突然有这样的一个想法。
这个世界上真的没有童话故事吗？
王子跟公主真的不能开开心心的在一起吗？
我一直都相信爱情是美丽的。
可是，
残酷的世界让我知道这一切的一切都只是个幻觉。

应该这样说，
错的不是爱情！
错的是时间。

Personality Test

I found a personality test which was quite accurate. This were the results:

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

P/s: choon how, accurate boh? haha!! =)

Friendship

I've decided to write this post in english, so some of you could understand(Sorry ah if I have lots of grammar error, my Eng is very weak). I guess, everyone of us have already know about the news that kel and tim are leaving. Obviously, everyone was sad about it. But, look at the bright side, they are still studying in the same building as us! =)

Since we're taking a diffrent program, I know it seems hard for us to maintain our friendship. But what can we do is to try.I'm sure if we try hard enough, we can still remain as close freinds. Haih! no more lunch and yam cha session together so often already. It's ok, few times in a month to hang out together is fine enough. We can still have our heart to heart pillow talk and organize trip together, like the previous kuantan and genting trip. No matter which program we're taking, what's important is that every momment we've been through together is already the fact! And it would last forever and ever as a memory in our lives.

So, don't feel bad or hard in making this decision. It's all about your future, you don't need to care about us(although i know you will. HAHA!!).All I can say here is, wish both of you all the best in the future! But, I know that life wouldn't be that FUN without us. HAHA! But it's ok, we can still hang out together some other time. So don't worry!

Kelvin,
HAHA! No more copying calculus answer from me already. Do yourself la! No more lame jokes from me too. Cheer up ok? Btw, stop being an emo kid and don't think so much la! =)

Timothy,
Steamboat next time again ok? HAHA! Don't worry, we will help you take care of shalee. We won't let anyone get near her(I mean guys). HAHA!

Katrina,
Don't be so sad lah! At least we can still study together and you can still be with Nic. HAHA! Don't keep on putting the blame on yourself, It's not your fault. Like what Kelvin said, It is JPA's fault! =)

It really doesn't matter. At least our friendship is still there. =)
Our LOL spirit! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

火锅大餐

继云顶的火锅大餐后，
今天我们九个人又去88吃了自助餐的火锅。
这次的九个人包括kelvin, katrina, nicholas, jayshen, shalee, timothy, mukun, yeesheng , edward和我。
我们从晚上8点吃到11点，
真是有够夸张！哈哈！
这边的食物虽然比云顶多，
可是云顶的酱比较好吃。
可惜，这次我们没有烧虾，
只是去烧肉而已。
这边比较特别的是，
他还有BBQ呢！

没想到的是，
yee sheng 也蛮会烧东西的。
煎蛋和烧kaya puff最好吃！
kelvin 烧的肉也是一极棒！
我们全部都饱到很想要吐。哈哈！

不过，
真的很开心。
大家一起开开心心吃东西的感觉真的很好。
不管吃什么，
大家在一起就好了。
真希望我们能维持这样的友谊。
这段友谊来得不易，我们大家都要好好珍惜！

我们下次再去吃过别间的火锅好吗？=)
我真的很喜欢大家一起吃火锅的感觉。

第一天开学

休息了两个星期，终于开学了！
要准备开始进入忙碌的生活了。
今天，我们正式到TBS上课了。
相信每个人都不习惯在那里上课。
lift又慢，
没地方lepak，
课室又难找，
问题真是多啊！
新老师也不如旧的好。
真的开始想念12楼了。
想念大家一起上课，
一起在12楼那而等吃午餐，
一起在图书馆讲话和读书。

虽然开学了，
可是还会有少少的空虚。
可能是因为熟悉的面孔都不在了吧！
Jason, Chye Hong, Choon How, Wei Quan,
这四个是我以前天天都会见的人，
现在，都已经各奔东西了。（虽然今天还看到Chye Hong and Choon How）
看着某些地方，
全部的回忆都会跟着涌了上来。
脑海里，就会像在播映着这一段段的回忆。
让人也不经意的回想起很多事情，
尤其是关于Theatre的。

虽然说旧的不去，新的不来。
可是，我比较希望时间是停止在那个时候。
那一个我们可以天天见面的时候，
一起吃饭，一起玩乐，
一起排练Theatre的时候。
可惜，
时间是不能倒流的，
我们只能永远的向前跑。
这些回忆只能永远都在我们的脑海中。

你们每一个，我都好想念啊！<3

拥抱

拥抱最能带给人的是一份安全感。
一份能让人依靠的感觉。
让人能把所有的烦劳都忘了的感觉。
跟不同的人拥抱，
会有不同的感觉。
跟朋友的拥抱，
是一份鼓励，一份加油。
跟家人的拥抱，
是一份温暖，一份支持。
跟情人的拥抱，
却是一份安全感，一份幸福。
每一个感觉都对我们很重要。
尤其是在我们人生中低潮的时候。

今天，看着外面下起的雨。
我突然很想要一个拥抱。
一个能给我力量的拥抱，
让我能够继续走下去。
这就是我最想要的。

一个真心诚意的拥抱，那就够了！